The Danger of Indifference

I was up late a few nights ago talking to a friend on Facebook about life and such, when a thought began to creep into my conscious: why has my life been so stagnant? Talking with my friend reminded myself about the lack of growth I have been experiencing over the last month or so. It’s not something I’ve really paid all that much attention to in the last few weeks, but after that conversation it was brought to the center of my attention.

When things like this happen, I usually pause and take a look at myself. I try to critique myself from the perspective of: is God’s glory showing in my life? I realized that it wasn’t, and I began to dig a little deeper, and that’s when I realized something. I had adopted an attitude of indifference. Indifference towards life, my future, my walk with God, everything. My life literally decided to sit back in a recliner and do nothing.

A lack of spiritual growth is a dangerous thing. I have always felt that in your relationship with God, you can move in one of two directions: you can either grow closer to Him, or you can fall farther way; there is no plateau of stability, where you can just chill and be stationary. If you aren’t constantly pursuing Him, you’re slipping away from Him. I became guilty of this. I wasn’t pursuing Him, and I realized that I had fallen away from my relationship with Him.

I’ve never been known to have a lack of emotion or care about anything, but that’s exactly what I’ve now been faced with. So, what did I do then? I did what my heart suddenly was bursting for me to do: seek His face. In prayer and meditation, seek His face. If you feel like you haven’t had any spiritual growth lately, I would ask you to search within yourself, and see if you’re dealing with indifference.

I look forward to seeing where things go from here.